人日, Happy Birthday!

Today is the 7th day of the first lunar month, it is traditionally known as "renrì" (人日), is everyone birthday.  According to the Chinese legend, "nv wo" (女媧) created man, first six days she created chicken, dog, pig, sheep, cow and horse, the 7th days she created man, this is the origin of human beings, therefore this day is man's birthday.

Happy birthday to you, you, you!  Emm.. today is the birthday of all people, which is means I have a reason to give a birthday gift for myself!  : P

I have a habit, every year I will give myself a gift as an encouragement, I will look for a gift which have it meaning to me, not the gift itself.

A word "Courage" as a gift to me!

In 2009, I have done open water scuba diving course, I am not a good swimmer, therefore I always not confident to swim at open sea even now, altough scared during the course but finally I overcame it.  Every thing have a try, at least once.

A word "Tolerant" as a gift to me!

In 2010, I went to Indonesia for a volcanic trip which I felt that have to experience in life, when I stood and view from the peak of crater, looked at the landscape, I felt small.  There is big world out there, human is really small, widen our mind our heart to accept, to forgive, to understand.

A word "Cherish" as a gift to me!

(Sok Lee, Shirley & Me) 

In 2011, I went to Macau to visit a friend, Sok Lee.  I been said want to visit her many times but always not, finally I made my word.  We always have an excuse to say no time because busy, are we really busy?  True friendship not easy, I want to cherish, do you?

A word "Treasure" as a gift to me!

Year 2012, a camera as a gift.  To be frank, I love to take photo and wish to have this kind of camera for long time but I don't spend it due to my old camera still in good condition, I am not a luxury person.  The gift I only pay little money, the big sponsor is my brother, I am touching and I know he work very hard, I will treasure it, thank you. 

Simple word but means a lot to me.  : )

Fake vs Real

Sometimes life had been crappy for me, but I still treat people kindly and keep a lot to myself, although sometimes I get fed up with feeling like when people stand right in front of you and then stab you in the back... that what was just happened recently.

Fake people act like human, fake people deny their flaws and they put the blame on other people, fake people make conversation to mess with people’s emotions and ruin your mood, fake people make you want to pull your hair out...

Why can’t people be themselves? Why can’t they be real? Where is the realness?

Real people act like people, real people apologize for their faults, real people make conversation to welcome friendship, real people listen and know what it means to be human, real people always show respect no matter what setting they are in... maybe sometimes real people can be too blunt and too honest but that is real us!

Please be nice, be smart and be real!

The sky

We all see the same sky even you.. and we pass it every day!  Looked at the sky every day has a different feeling, not because the sky looks different, is because ourselves have different mood, it is what we see in the sky that makes us different, I found that sometimes the sky looks like the sea, sometimes the sea looks like the sky.

Staring at the sky, looked out towards a land I couldn't see.. I am thinking of you.

How are you today?  Wish you well.  : )

Rush vs Rest

Last week was a terrible week, the only thing I can remember during that week was "rush rush rush" and "work work work" and "fast fast fast".. so stress up!

This week is a lot better than last one, at least I have nothing to "rush rush rush" although I still have to "work work work" but I can take my time, don't need to "fast fast fast".  

10 days more... I am looking forward... I want "rest rest rest"! : D

Words of wisdom

Very true, we can't force love, it just happens. : )

The negative space

This is exactly what I needed to hear! If you missed me saying it, I miss you.

I do miss you, really badly..

I know I shouldn't be saying this but it won't be long..

I promise..

One step at a time

One step at a time, there is no need to rush... the best way to fall is?  I walk slowly, but I never walk backwards, if it is meant to be, everything will fall in place, exactly where it is suppose to be.

I always believe that. : )

ONE STEP AT A TIME

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you can taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
You wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind impatient, waiting
We live and we learn to take...

One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused and got it all figured out
Everything that you've always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
(When you need to find the strength)
It's your faith that makes you stronger
The only we get there is one step at a time

I hate!

I hate..

Well.. a lot of things, such as hate making choices, hate eating bitter foods, hate hot weather, hate being disturb, hate noisy, hate messy, etc. sounds serious but I am really not, honestly.. -.-"

But.. the most I hate is rush, it is make it to my top ten list! Especial if someone rushes me into doing something without having really decided if it is the right thing to do or having considered the best way to do it, such as.. JOB! 

I REALLY HATE RUSH!!! ><

The talk

One of the most important thing another human being can give us, is something to say.  We need to tell the people around us what's on our mind.

I want to listen to you.
I want you to tell me your story, in your words. 

I can’t hear you unless you speak.

I wish I can find you, wrap my arms around you and whisper “you are not alone”. 

I wish I can tell you this.

人质

在我心上用力地开一枪 让一切归零 在这声巨响

人质

我和你啊 存在一种危险关系
彼此挟持 这另一部分的自已
本以为这完整了爱的定义
那就乖乖的守护着你

相爱变成 猜忌怀疑的烂游戏
规则是要 憋着呼吸越靠越近
但你的温柔 是我唯一沉溺
你是爱我的 就不怕有缝隙

在我心上用力地开一枪
让一切归零 在这声巨响
如果爱是说什么都不能放
我不挣扎 反正我也 没差

人质在这一刻得到释放
相爱的纯粹落得如此下场
你满意吗 我们都别 说谎

Bye... 阿福!

Another day, another month, another year... everything happens for a reason.

I am a simple person with a simple mind, but at times I do think a lot, my mind like a washing machine run and nonstop, I think of how things turn out the way they are and if the first step was done in a different way, would it turn out the other way?  Maybe.

New Year is the time to forget every bad feeling of the past year and start the life afresh.  To me, give a self hug and promise to myself that come what may I would remain truthful to myself.  To you, I wish to know more about you, when you told me about yourself on that day, how I wish I can hug you and tell you that you are not alone.

You, stupid!  Like a 阿福! >< 

You know, I sense something from you to me but I am not sure your feeling, I am afraid am thinking too much, it makes me confuse always.  I am a shy person, I been struggle but decided to take a first step to invite you out in order for us to start like a friend, to know each other more, but the outcome yesterday was...  

I am totally wrong, I am in the wrong direction... you are not in the same way with me.

I still give you a big hug here in this greeting season, may warm brighten your new year ahead.

Bye... 阿福!